I have been quiet for the past few months. I had my disability hearing in December and spent until January worrying about what actually happened and what it all meant. Then Wizards of the Coast came out with OGL 1.1 and 1.2, which would have changed the table-top role-playing game community before backpedaling that decision and putting the system reference document they had been trying to lock down into the creative commons. I had felt so much pressure building up and started feeling guilty for letting my blog and my business slide.
This guilt has been hanging around as my symptoms took a turn for the worse. In my attempts to recover some of my strength and systems, I got back into reading The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk, M.D. In this reading, I reached a chapter that talked about how we can get stuck in trauma when we are left to deal with something traumatic on our own. When we lack the support of others, we can push aside our feelings about what happened to just suck it up and get on with life. This reminded me of why I created this blog. I had created this blog to help others who struggle with disabilities know they aren’t alone. Even if you don’t have supportive people around you, I hope to help others find some of the supportive communities that exist online. While we may be physically distant, we can connect with others who have our struggle through places like Instagram and Twitter (less so since Musk but we’re still there).
If you are feeling alone, come find me on Instagram along with other great creators like @the.annegirl, @the_chronic_notebook, @katethealmostgreat, @wheelsnoheels, or even myself @nerdoutofspoons. Many of us share our experience there. You don’t have to rely entirely on yourself. There are others out there who understand your struggle and share tips for a better life. I hope you can join us there and find a community that will help you feel less alone.